Saturday: Waiting for Irene

The outdoor items are either in, or down.

I have more water than I know I need.

I have a nifty new flashlight with 5 (5!) functions.

I have food.

The truck is parked away from the big maple.

Tonight, before bed, I will shower, in case I cannot do so tomorrow. I’ll even cut my hair.  I will be freshly shorn for Irene.

This morning, upon waking, I noticed that the birds were not singing. There was a timid hum of crickets, but no birdsong. I guess we are all holding our collective breaths.

I have a friend who has a tattoo. It says “WAIT”. She got it at a particularly rough time in her life a few years back. She says it helps to remind her that things change; that rash action is ill-advised. It also, she says, can stand for “What Am I Thinking”?

Perfect for me. Because, while I wait, my mind can turn to things.  Fearful things. I cannot control my first thought, but I can decide what’s next. I can remind myself that I have done all I can and then let the dark thoughts go. I can turn to meditation. I can pick up the phone and talk to someone. I can do the dishes. I can write a blog.

So often, action is resuscitating.  Ruminating is not. Actions, like all of those just mentioned, take me out of my wittle head (yes, think Elmer Fudd) and back into the larger, often saner, world. Even if it’s just the world of the dirty dishes. But, the dishes are grounding. They are real. And the energy I would turn inward can then be spent elsewhere, with positive results.

Right now, I choose not to dream up any drama.

Right now, I am more than just waiting: I am living in the present.


About Soul Intention

"Spirituality is, ultimately, about what we do with...desire. What we do with our longings, both in terms of handling the pain and the hope they bring us, that is our spirituality." from The Holy Longing by Ronald Rolheiser. Paraphrasing what Gerald May has said, in his book Will and Spirit, spirituality is our experience and interpretation of our relationship with the Sacred. The intent of this blog is to explore for myself, and to invite others to explore with me, just what is it we do with our desire? What is our spirituality? Mine has been shaped by many my formative years, by the Roman Catholic church. In the last decade, by the 12 steps. Most recently, by the Episcopal Church. And, always, always, by the sense that Nature helped to reveal the Great Mystery, of which we are all a part. So, my spirituality includes concrete practices, like the Steps, as well as probing more philosophical matters. I was certified, in January 2011, as a Spiritual Director by the Haden Institute. During those 21 months of study, which included a broad range of topics from Celtic Spirituality, to the Christian Mystics, to Jungian Depth psychology, I was given the space and time to ponder my own spiritual journey, hear about others' paths, and benefit from participation in an intentional community. My hope is that this blog can engender a similar conversation. Peace, Paul
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1 Response to Saturday: Waiting for Irene

  1. Kate Theriot says:

    Yes, Paul the silence before the hurricane is one of the most haunting experiences. I hope you all weathered the storm safely. My prayers are with all on the east coast.

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