Credo

A few nights ago, at a gathering of journeying souls, I read my own creed aloud. Like coming out, it‘s a way of committing to myself.

Only 6 months before, after many preceding months of thought and questions, I felt courageous enough to write my own creed. I say courageous, because, although I am now active in the Episcopal church, where questioning and reasoning is considered vital to the spiritual life, my Roman Catholic upbringing did not leave any room for doubt, much less a difference of belief. Saying the Nicene Creed each Sunday was like the Pledge of Allegiance, except much more serious. My soul was at stake.

I didn’t realize how far-reaching this was for me: at nearly 52, I was still concerned about my own doubts and contrary beliefs. So, when I finally allowed myself to articulate them, and realized that no heavenly thunderbolt would vaporize me, it was a moment of great freedom and relief. It was a great moment of maturity. Whether our reading has taken us into Dante, and his eloquently expressed mid-life crisis, or into Jung’s depth psychology, or into Fowler’s Stages of Faith, it seems likely that a time like this will come for many of us. At least it did for me.

Here is what I read to those assembled (and what I say quietly to myself when everyone else is saying the creed during Mass):

I trust that there is a Source, from which emanates beauty, truth, wisdom and love.

The Source underlies all things and is in all things, regardless of my ability to perceive it.

I understand Jesus to be a perfect revelation and incarnation of the Source.

I believe that Jesus was born of woman who gave her assent to the seemingly impossible because of her great trust; and, surrendered to a great mystery that I certainly would not have understood if I were she.

I believe that I, like Mary, am called to birth the Source; to say “yes” to a process that I don’t fully comprehend, and may sometimes fear; so that I, too, may embody wisdom, beauty, love and truth.

And, as did Jesus, if I bear, and give witness to, Source, there will be transformation for me and perhaps for a small part of the world. And, there may be unpleasantness, discord, separation and sadness.

And, yet, I believe that this is my journey. And I need to commit everyday, sometimes by hour or by minute. And I can always say “no”.

I sense that the flow of Source energy is beautiful and mysterious; that it cannot be forced or contained, but it can be carried through us, and that it heals, consoles and enlightens.

Amen.

About Soul Intention

"Spirituality is, ultimately, about what we do with...desire. What we do with our longings, both in terms of handling the pain and the hope they bring us, that is our spirituality." from The Holy Longing by Ronald Rolheiser. Paraphrasing what Gerald May has said, in his book Will and Spirit, spirituality is our experience and interpretation of our relationship with the Sacred. The intent of this blog is to explore for myself, and to invite others to explore with me, just what is it we do with our desire? What is our spirituality? Mine has been shaped by many things...in my formative years, by the Roman Catholic church. In the last decade, by the 12 steps. Most recently, by the Episcopal Church. And, always, always, by the sense that Nature helped to reveal the Great Mystery, of which we are all a part. So, my spirituality includes concrete practices, like the Steps, as well as probing more philosophical matters. I was certified, in January 2011, as a Spiritual Director by the Haden Institute. During those 21 months of study, which included a broad range of topics from Celtic Spirituality, to the Christian Mystics, to Jungian Depth psychology, I was given the space and time to ponder my own spiritual journey, hear about others' paths, and benefit from participation in an intentional community. My hope is that this blog can engender a similar conversation. Peace, Paul
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4 Responses to Credo

  1. James Ruff says:

    Beautiful to read of your journey & it’s latest step, Paul. Thank you!

    Le Beannachdan,

    Jim

  2. what a beautiful post ,soul friend!

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